Not so happy birthday

Ugh.
So, I didn't really enjoy my birthday yesterday. I'm so sad. :(

Okay, so here's what happened. I spent most of the morning with my family. You know, cake and things. And I went out for a bit to have some dramatic alone time... And I saw Ryan, watering the disabled bushes. That's nice of him... I guess. I helped him out and we got to talk about things beside theater and singing. That's usually what we always talk about. And he became, like, really honest because he told me he first thought I was a bitchy type of plant.

Really?
I like him dishonest, and shy, and stupid. I am so not bitchy. >:(

Amidst our talking and laughing and other things I never thought I'd enjoy doing with Ryan (I mean, puny loser boy, right?)... I suddenly saw Mark leisurely strolling by. Huh. That's not something you see everyday. (If you aren't me, I mean). He looked surrpised to see me, and said that he was on his way home from our house. He said he went by to fetch me since we were going out to celebrate my birthday or something.

How could I have forgotten that?

I apologized and he was "perfectly fine with it".
We were about to leave when I suggested we take Ryan with us, to hang out and things. I mean, he's an okay boy when you get to know him. Mark took it as a joke and I got pissed.
He's been rude towards Ryan ever since he arrived. He didn't even acknowledge him! >:( That just won't do. And I know Ryan doesn't want to get in the way cause he was silently slipping away, but I don't want him to feel like some loser. I DON'T bloody talk to losers, and that makes him a not-loser kind of plant.

So we got into this really big and wordy fight, and Ryan was trying to calm us both down, but Mark was being barmy about it and shouted at him like he had nothing to do about us. THE WHOLE FIGHT WAS ABOUT BLOODY RYAN. I can't believe Mark could be that insensitive.

I can see why he has this negative energy towards little Ryan, though. I mean, he's my lead role. I got him instead of Mark.
But really. It's so childish of him! That doesn't mean anything~

...does it?

Well, whatever. I got really pissed at it, so I broke up with him. And he couldn't believe I was breaking up with him cause of Ryan.
And I glared at him and thanked him for his lovely "present".

Wow. Happy birthday to me. : |

This boy, Ryan. (Part III)

I finally got him to surrender to me.
We've been running lines together.
His voice is really amazing...
And he's such a fun guy once you get over the shyness...
He is playful sort of fun.
He's interesting to be with. He's sort of growing on me. :)

This boy, Ryan. (Part II)

I talked to the teacher about the roles, but he said that the roles were final. I threatened him about backing out, but he didn't care because the girl next in line is Poppy. And I care because he's been, like, after my Mark for a while now. And I don't want any vulture coming near any of my properties.

So I've been practicing with loser boy. I insisted on private practice with him, and he agreed to it, but we haven't progressed much. He's just too shy...
But when we're practicing on stage, when the teachers and everyone else are watching, he's acting is so great, he almost looks cool. And his voice isn't bad at all.

Because I was amazed by him, I trapped him in one corner after practice and confronted him. I think I might've frightened him, but at least he answered. He said it was just so awkward to act one-on-one. I have to agree... It's not exactly the most comfortable of feelings... But we have to develop some sort fo bond here, os at least run lines together!
But he's just so scared... I hate it. It's so unmanly!! I want to bite his head off...

I mean, most men in Venus are manly because of the mafia and all. How does this Ryan kid survive the outside world? If he's going to be weak like that, then he should do all of the us a favor, and shoot himself. It's just for the best.

Pity. His voice was divine. Wish he wasn't so shy.